Beautiful Struggle

by Caleb Parker

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Released in 2013, "Beautiful Struggle" is a culmination of musical ideas and artistic evolution for Caleb between 2009-2013. The album represents not only the musical changes he experienced during this timeframe, but personal changes as well. The concept is simple: we all struggle. Without struggle, there is no growth. It is what defines us and compels us to progress- to push forward.

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released April 10, 2013

Molly Smith - art
Sam Peck - guitar, "Stars"
Annie McDonald - lyrics, "Landscapes of You"

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Caleb Parker Los Angeles, California

Caleb Parker is a composer for mediums ranging from the silver screen to the concert hall. He believes that music has the power to transport the listener to an "experiential beyond".

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Track Name: Night Comes
I will fight until the night comes,
No applause until the work’s done.
See our love, it’s going to be won,
I will fight until the night comes.

When the sun is up we’ll have won.
There’s no sleep until the day’s done.
See this darkness will be undone.
I will fight until the night comes.

Excuse me darling can you give me your name?
I got a first class ticket, extra seat on the plane.
I want to, skip town, run away with you.
I can tell by your smile, that’s what you want to do too.

Tell me baby, what is your name?
I try to speak but you, push away from me.
Tell me baby, why are we here?
I gotta move, are you coming or staying here?

Believe me darling, I know where you been,
Don’t wanna know the details if you’re more than a friend.
I need to, figure out if you’re on board with me
Girl you ready to go? ‘Cause our flight’s going to leave.

Tell me why are you here?
Tell me what’s your name,
Tell me where you want to go with me, babe.
Tell me why are you here?
Tell me what's your name.

I will fight until the night comes,
No applause until the work’s done.
See our love, it’s going to be won,
I will fight until the night comes.
Track Name: Sunrush
Girl, don't you feel it when the sunshine comes?
Track Name: Landscapes of You
I cannot see your smile,
I cannot see your face.
My hand tries to find yours,
My heart picks up the pace.

Your name is always mentioned,
That song is always played.
I want to be with you again,
Don’t want to be afraid.

Once I think I’ve forgotten,
You’re back just like a curse.
Once I was moving on then
I was sent into reverse.

I know that you will have him,
I just blend in the crowd.
But my heart doesn’t care
And it’s screaming out loud.

And in the midst of all this,
This pain and tragedy,
My body’s weak my mind is numb,
Still my heart sings.

You don’t know how you’ve hurt me,
You turned and walked away.
You made a fool of me
In the light of your day.

I have no one to turn to,
Need to get out of here.
Thought our secrets were lost,
So I had no fear.

I just ignore the whispers,
Try to be true to you.
They say, that you’re in love,
Well that’s nothing new.

And now I am so frightened,
For my face to be shown.
Your promises were broken,
Our secrets made known.

These winding paths of sorrow;
Decayed and so old.
Guess you know that I love you
I wonder who told?

I want to see this world,
Don’t want to be alone.
Reminded of your beauty,
And things I’ve not known.

I miss the nights spent with you,
Moon glow lit up the sky.
My arm around your waist,
And your hand in mine.
Track Name: Aeon
The sun has died, there comes a day
When all that’s left is cold and gray.
The heartache sailing through the walls,
As echolocation for the way.

Don’t know why I’m hiding
Don’t where I’ve gone
Just trying to help myself along.

The ashes of time all fall away
And darkness resonates in bone.

I dream of burning in the night
The oxygen in my lungs ablaze
The fire reaching to my core
Like I had been trapped and bound to pay.

Can’t see where I’m heading
Don’t know where you’ve gone
Just trying to find you all along.

The shadowy figures come to stay,
As the luminous glow turns unbeknown.

My body awakens to the night
As I try to find a way out of this dream
The vision returning to my eyes
And darkness settles over me

The sun isn’t rising
The clouds are ahead
The merciless cold infects as lead
So whenever you see me losing life,
You'll know that's right where I need to be.

Someday I will find myself beneath that sky of gray.
One day I will leave this hell behind and run away.
Track Name: I've Been Waiting
I’ve been drowned, Ive been dry,
I’ve been low, I’ve been high,
I've been here, I've been there,
I’ve been waiting.

I’ve been lost, I’ve been found,
A troubled man, I’ve been down,
The wrong roads,
Still I'm waiting for you.

Girl I tried to find a way,
Tried to find a way to your heart.
Girl I’d die to find a way,
Die to find a way to your heart.
I tried to fly, but now I die.

I’ve been drowned, Ive been dry,
I’ve been low, I’ve been high,
I've been here, I've been there,
I’ve been waiting.

I’ve been lost, I’ve been found,
A troubled man, I’ve been down,
The wrong roads,
Still I'm waiting for you.

Girl remember yesterday
When I held the key to your heart?
And now I’d die to find a way,
To begin again, we’re back at the start.
I tried to fly, but now I die.

I’ve been drowned, Ive been dry,
I’ve been low, I’ve been high,
I've been here, I've been there,
I’ve been waiting.

I’ve been lost, I’ve been found,
A troubled man, I’ve been down,
The wrong roads,
Still I'm waiting for you.
Track Name: Another Reality
Flying through the air in the plane of my dreams,
Sophisticated and collected but I’m raw at the seams.
I got that seat back television, watching my team,
But here I go my mind is wandering and switching the scene.

Now on the ground, and my limo awaits,
I shed my pitch-black shades as I swag through the gate.
Don’t even wait, door opens and the windows opaque,
Driver throwing down the gas and forgetting the brake.

Sun flowing in brilliant and bold,
Looking like another idea chasing after the gold.
The vision fades leaving nothing for my eyes to behold,
I’m under pressure looking for another glimmer of hope.

I’m on my way out, it’s going to be right
I got it locked down, that’s what it look like.
And now I’m slipping back, into the dark of night,
Looks like my dreaming is blurring lines and blocking sight.

It’s another reality (when the sun goes down)
Nothing like I’ve ever seen (when the lights fade out)
Not sure what I should believe (whispers all around)
Just trying to find us, you and me (when the sun goes down)

Frame two, paint it purple with bronze:
Royal blood flowing from my veins, I’m acting Lebron.
I’m headstrong, walk into the room they playing my song
I’m in position for the line taking over the throne.

That’s right, I’ma do what I will.
When the time comes right I’m moving in for the kill.
I’ma cut down defectors, liars who know,
Throw a glance at the coroner to misdiagnose.

Palace crumbling, it covers the ground
I’m in the third dream level, and it’s tumbling down
Dom Cobb on the kick and then I’m coming around
I see the light it’s flooding over while the chaos resounds.

I’m on my way out, it’s going to be right
I got it locked down, that’s what it look like.
And now I’m slipping back, into the dark of night,
Looks like my dreaming is blurring lines and blocking sight.

It’s another reality (when the sun goes down)
Nothing like I’ve ever seen (when the lights fade out)
Not sure what I should believe (whispers all around)
Just trying to find us, you and me (when the sun goes down)
Track Name: Not the Same
Girl am I not enough for you?
I stand by my word girl,
I’ll give you anything.
Girl promise me one thing.
Don’t leave, no matter how tempting
The future looks apart from me.

Don’t walk further down that road,
Loving will not meet you there,
Don’t matter if the pain shows.
I’ll hold your head to cry.
Don’t go further down that road,
Resurrect the loving that we knew not too long ago.
I’ll hold you there tonight.

The moon is rising in your eyes
Hiding sorrow held deep inside.
The sun is setting on your face
Reflecting golden days of grace.
I’m not the same.

Girl, ask of me anything.
Hesitate not, what do you want from me?
I'd give my all for you.
Girl, I’ll promise you one thing.
I’ll stay strong for you if you’ll let me,
Commit myself to you.

Don’t walk further down that road,
Love is waiting for you right here, I'll never let go.
I'd hold your head to cry.
Don't go further down that road,
I am not about to acknowledge the fact that you're gone.
I'd hold you near tonight.

The moon is rising in your eyes
Hiding sorrow held deep inside.
The sun is setting on your face
Reflecting golden days of grace.
I’m not the same.

The moon arises in my eye,
Another vision passes by,
Now baby what do I do?

My heart it beats and then I come to realize
That all I ever wanna do is be with you
I’m not the same, girl.
Track Name: Melancholia
Theres a place I know
To where I go
And my freedom stands alone.

And nobody goes
To this place that I know
To the space that I’ve finally called home.

And my company
They’re not close to me
They’re atypically hard to conceive.

See from my intrigue
Find my heart it bleeds
And my brainchilds, they give me disease.

Girl, you know I’ve gotta go now
So get on out the door now, go.
See I’m just tryin to save my soul now
Try to save yourself now, go.

There are many things,
I should've told you earlier
But now we're stuck in this situation.
So go, get on out the door girl
Try to save your own world, go.

There’s a time knew
Back in my youth
There were feelings I had to refuse.

And nobody knew
About the love that grew
About the flames that wouldn’t consume.

Now remains are gone
And I’ve all but won
It’s the animal I have become.

See me as deranged,
Lock my heart in a cage.
I am never going to find an escape .

Here I am again,
Take my hand again,
Walk with me through the dark.
Track Name: Stars
In the light of the day
Or the moon I would say
I belong to you.

Girl and when you're afraid
I will come save the day
I'll be there for you.

So remember the day
and the night we were made
Girl you know it's true.

Situation's appraised
And our hearts set ablaze
You're the one I choose.

She says I have stars in my eyes, and they're easy to find
All she's gotta do is look at me.
And when she smiles I'm fine, 'cause this women is mine
Ain't that the way that it's supposed to be?

Cue the film a couple years
In the big city here
Hardly know what to do.

To be perfectly clear
I will not disappear
I hold onto you.

Girl relinquish your fear
I am trying not to hear
Doubts are not the truth.

In a city by the sea
We are learning to breathe
I belong to you.

She says I have stars in my eyes, and they're easy to find
All she's gotta do is look at me.
And when she smiles I'm fine, 'cause this women is mine
Ain't that the way that it's supposed to be?

Girl remember the night and the day we were made.

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